Wednesday, October 19, 2011
34 Years Old, Homeless and Heartbroken
Wow. Just wow. What else can one say?
Just turned 34.
Disabled and cannot work for 3 plus years now and probably for life.
Married yet separated with no reconciliation nor divorce in sight.
Just kicked out of my step sons life for no real reason.
Homeless week two. Worst. Feeling. Ever.
Lest we not forget the heartbroken part too.
Homeless and heartbroken. What a combination.
Well, I have nothing left to say at the current moment.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Retired At 34...
There was a time in my childhood in which I may have dreamed to be retired in my 30's. That dream has become reality for me, though not quite how I imagined it back in the day. No, I dreamed of racing my way to millions or inventing the "next best thing". No way did I imagine my body would start failing and I would become all but an invalid. Thankfully I still have all my limbs and most everything works like it did when I came out of the factory but the wounds I have cannot be seen. There is no known rhyme or reason for the pain I endure. Test after test the answer is still the same.
Everyday is a challenge. Even on my best days do I struggle. Mornings tend to be the worst part of my day. Two of my three service-connected disabilities are at their worst in the AM's. After my morning battle, the rest of the day is a mystery. Some days I am able to grasp some normality yet others are totally prostrating and I cannot participate in average daily activities as my pain levels are between seven and nine. SERE trained or not, any pain at that level will make even the hardest of the hard break down and cry for mercy. I would take any day in that POW cell over the pain I endure on my worst days. Gladly.
Unfortunately, life is not always "fair". Take it as it comes, suck it up and drive on and only the strong survive are a couple of the motto's I have learned to live by. 10 years after I raised my right hand and swore my oath to this great country, to protect life, liberty, FREEDOM. For three years I struggled with a very low disability rating from the VA. For three long, hard years I have endured severe and chronic pain. Not that my pain has subsided or dissipated but the VA has finally given my a disability rating closer to what I deserve.
The weight of the world has finally been lifted and I can again see the light of hope. Hooray! Here I am on the verge of 34 and retired. Not quite what I had imagined, but not having to stress over how I shall survive anymore is a great feeling, even more so now that I can insure my son's future in this wretched world. Do not take me wrong, I would gladly take my health over disability retirement ANY day. I remember my great sense of pride in accomplishment and I miss those days. I suppose that is why my grandfather worked til he was nearly 80 years old.
Have a dub day!
Everyday is a challenge. Even on my best days do I struggle. Mornings tend to be the worst part of my day. Two of my three service-connected disabilities are at their worst in the AM's. After my morning battle, the rest of the day is a mystery. Some days I am able to grasp some normality yet others are totally prostrating and I cannot participate in average daily activities as my pain levels are between seven and nine. SERE trained or not, any pain at that level will make even the hardest of the hard break down and cry for mercy. I would take any day in that POW cell over the pain I endure on my worst days. Gladly.
Unfortunately, life is not always "fair". Take it as it comes, suck it up and drive on and only the strong survive are a couple of the motto's I have learned to live by. 10 years after I raised my right hand and swore my oath to this great country, to protect life, liberty, FREEDOM. For three years I struggled with a very low disability rating from the VA. For three long, hard years I have endured severe and chronic pain. Not that my pain has subsided or dissipated but the VA has finally given my a disability rating closer to what I deserve.
The weight of the world has finally been lifted and I can again see the light of hope. Hooray! Here I am on the verge of 34 and retired. Not quite what I had imagined, but not having to stress over how I shall survive anymore is a great feeling, even more so now that I can insure my son's future in this wretched world. Do not take me wrong, I would gladly take my health over disability retirement ANY day. I remember my great sense of pride in accomplishment and I miss those days. I suppose that is why my grandfather worked til he was nearly 80 years old.
Have a dub day!
Sunday, October 2, 2011
My First Time...
Life is full of FIRSTS. First crush, first kiss, first love...those are the most common referred to firsts as memories of love and affection are usually one's happiest thoughts and memories. What about our first hockey game, first time catching a baseball, first time tasting a new candy? These firsts are best remembered by others as they have helped you experience these. Now I cannot remember the first time I had my favorite candy nor can I remember my first catch of the baseball; though I do remember my first time ever riding a motorcycle solo. What an awesome and great feeling that was, especially since I was so young at a mere 6 years old.
There is nothing more awesome than introducing one's offspring to new and wonderful things. Sharing that first taste of Big League Chew and watching his face explode with excitement and wonder gives back such a fulfilling feeling. As I journey through this life with my son, I tend to make it a goal to find something new and exciting to try as often as possible. Although, oneself must remember to nurture and feed those activities they enjoy most and talk about often. Try not to overload your youngster with too much new at once as well. Help them to understand these new things, teach them the how's or why's as your child will be asking those often. My son and I recently had some great firsts. For over a month I searched and scoured every gas station, convenience store and local grocery market to find some Big League Chew. Nowhere could it be found. Thankful for the internet, I tracked down the manufacturer of BLC and emailed them a letter requesting assistance finding their distributors. Within a couple of days the email was responded to and I was contacting the stores recommended by Ford Gum. Now, my 4 year old has had bubblegum before but he has NEVER enjoyed gum this much. Who can resist those fresh, sweet shredded strips of chewy awesomeness!? I for one, have never been able to resist them, especially the other flavors. While visiting Big League Chew's website I noticed there was a new Watermelon flavor. My new goal is to find some of this and eat a whole pouch at once. No seriously though, watermelon has to be my favorite flavored candy, drink or whatever. I remember my first watermelon Sprite. A drink I concocted while working at a Sonic Drive In many years ago. A simple yet very delicious mix.
Hockey season is upon us and my love for the game has been rekindled as I plan on getting my son into the sport. We have been hitting the ice rinks, another recent first for my boy. We ventured to a local hockey game and what a blast we both had. Technically, that was only my third game ever watching live, but as a former player, I have "viewed" many games from my crease in front of the net. There is something about being in the crowd, watching the checks and slap shots, how can anyone NOT smile and have a great time? Even though there is alcohol at every sporting event in our country, I personally do not feel uncomfortable at an ice hockey game like I would at a football game or even a motorsports race.The hockey arena atmosphere is much more chill. Maybe it's the cool, crisp air or maybe my younger memories of times in the arena bring about such a euphoria. No matter why, good times are always had near the ice.
Relish and treasure those ever so awesome and radical firsts but also feed the seconds and thirds and so on. Just remember to have fun, tread lightly and good things are sure to pass.
Have a dub day!
There is nothing more awesome than introducing one's offspring to new and wonderful things. Sharing that first taste of Big League Chew and watching his face explode with excitement and wonder gives back such a fulfilling feeling. As I journey through this life with my son, I tend to make it a goal to find something new and exciting to try as often as possible. Although, oneself must remember to nurture and feed those activities they enjoy most and talk about often. Try not to overload your youngster with too much new at once as well. Help them to understand these new things, teach them the how's or why's as your child will be asking those often. My son and I recently had some great firsts. For over a month I searched and scoured every gas station, convenience store and local grocery market to find some Big League Chew. Nowhere could it be found. Thankful for the internet, I tracked down the manufacturer of BLC and emailed them a letter requesting assistance finding their distributors. Within a couple of days the email was responded to and I was contacting the stores recommended by Ford Gum. Now, my 4 year old has had bubblegum before but he has NEVER enjoyed gum this much. Who can resist those fresh, sweet shredded strips of chewy awesomeness!? I for one, have never been able to resist them, especially the other flavors. While visiting Big League Chew's website I noticed there was a new Watermelon flavor. My new goal is to find some of this and eat a whole pouch at once. No seriously though, watermelon has to be my favorite flavored candy, drink or whatever. I remember my first watermelon Sprite. A drink I concocted while working at a Sonic Drive In many years ago. A simple yet very delicious mix.
Hockey season is upon us and my love for the game has been rekindled as I plan on getting my son into the sport. We have been hitting the ice rinks, another recent first for my boy. We ventured to a local hockey game and what a blast we both had. Technically, that was only my third game ever watching live, but as a former player, I have "viewed" many games from my crease in front of the net. There is something about being in the crowd, watching the checks and slap shots, how can anyone NOT smile and have a great time? Even though there is alcohol at every sporting event in our country, I personally do not feel uncomfortable at an ice hockey game like I would at a football game or even a motorsports race.The hockey arena atmosphere is much more chill. Maybe it's the cool, crisp air or maybe my younger memories of times in the arena bring about such a euphoria. No matter why, good times are always had near the ice.
Relish and treasure those ever so awesome and radical firsts but also feed the seconds and thirds and so on. Just remember to have fun, tread lightly and good things are sure to pass.
Have a dub day!
Saturday, September 24, 2011
What Is Life...
What is life? There are many people whom ask this question every day. There are few who have found that answer. Instead, they are forced to slave their lives away and are blind to the real world around them. Caught up in their race to have the biggest and fastest, trendiest whatever may be the next BIG thing. Sadly we live in a disposable society. Throw away products, careers and even lives! What is wrong with all of us. Yes, US. Not just him, her or they. All of US.
You want to know "What is life"? Well, it is pretty simple...every time you do anything, think of our future generations. Think of the consequences of your actions, good or bad. Be aware of your surroundings and to the WORLD around you. Always remember the golden rule..."Treat others as you would like to be treated." There is much more wisdom to be passed on, unfortunately time constraints prohibit further delving into these subject matters at this time. Peace be with you brothers and sisters.
Have a dub day!
Have a dub day!
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
2004 Mustang Premium GT 40th Anniversary Crimson Red, 1 Owner ,50k Miles FOR SALE Ebay Craigslist
2004 Ford Mustang Premium GT 40th Anniversary special edition package w/ correct spoiler delete. 1 of 5700 produced, even less with the more desirable 40th Anniversary Mustang ONLY color of Crimson Red and "as optioned" makes this 1 of 528. Cruise, Tilt, Fog Lamps, Mach 460 Premium Sound, 5 Speed Manual, Power Locks, Power Windows, Power Trunk Release, Power Driver Seat, Traction Control, Rear Window Defrost, COLD (Factory) AC, Warm Heat, Fold Down Rear Seats. VERY clean 2004 Mustang GT. I will also include in the sale a spare set of front 40th Anniversary floor mats used for "shows" and a Factory Ford fitted car cover with 40th Anniversary logo (cover is for indoor use and when paint is clean-merely to keep dust free when car was in storage between cruises/shows)
<50k miles, I bought new from Mike Shad Ford in Jacksonville, Fl when I was in the Navy in November 2003. Was a spare weekender only car for more than half her life, but life changes and poop happens. Needs minor body work, NO FRAME/UNIBODY work required, the damage is merely cosmetic. Runs strong and drives straight, drove her to TX and back a couple weeks ago, 21+ mpg on the freeway (still on factory plugs). Mobil1 full synthetic every 5k miles since break-in. All stock with addition of K&N air filter and tinted windows (Florida state legal w/ full transferable warranty). I am torn on selling this car, but my health forces sale. I can no longer work to provide for my family so my precious 04 Anny must go, hopefully to someone willing to take good care of here (nice garage, weekend trips, she also enjoys being waxed and detailed).
This stang was also at the 2004 Ford NASCAR season ending race @ Miami/Homestead for the unveiling of the 2005 Mustang GT where she was parked on pit row pre-race with about 10 other prestigious Mustangs from various eras in the history of the Mustang. ALL original paperwork will be included with the sale of this car. Please visit my Photobucket album online to view pics of this beautiful car.
Yes it needs some minor work (pass. headlight, pass fender, headlight mounting panel, front and rear bumpers and paint to match).
2004 Ford Mustang GT 40th Anniversary Crimson Red <50k miles [PhotoBucket Album]
eBay Auction for 2004 40th Anny Crimson Stang
Telephone number listed in eBay and Craigslist.org ads.
$8250 Buy It Now! and <$7500 reserve!
<50k miles, I bought new from Mike Shad Ford in Jacksonville, Fl when I was in the Navy in November 2003. Was a spare weekender only car for more than half her life, but life changes and poop happens. Needs minor body work, NO FRAME/UNIBODY work required, the damage is merely cosmetic. Runs strong and drives straight, drove her to TX and back a couple weeks ago, 21+ mpg on the freeway (still on factory plugs). Mobil1 full synthetic every 5k miles since break-in. All stock with addition of K&N air filter and tinted windows (Florida state legal w/ full transferable warranty). I am torn on selling this car, but my health forces sale. I can no longer work to provide for my family so my precious 04 Anny must go, hopefully to someone willing to take good care of here (nice garage, weekend trips, she also enjoys being waxed and detailed).
This stang was also at the 2004 Ford NASCAR season ending race @ Miami/Homestead for the unveiling of the 2005 Mustang GT where she was parked on pit row pre-race with about 10 other prestigious Mustangs from various eras in the history of the Mustang. ALL original paperwork will be included with the sale of this car. Please visit my Photobucket album online to view pics of this beautiful car.
Yes it needs some minor work (pass. headlight, pass fender, headlight mounting panel, front and rear bumpers and paint to match).
2004 Ford Mustang GT 40th Anniversary Crimson Red <50k miles [PhotoBucket Album]
eBay Auction for 2004 40th Anny Crimson Stang
Telephone number listed in eBay and Craigslist.org ads.
$8250 Buy It Now! and <$7500 reserve!
Thursday, December 2, 2010
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